One step at a Time

Today I have been thinking, I know that's not always a good thing, but bear with me.As I was thinking I thought about the fact that we all make mistakes. Each one of us has things that either annoy others or just aren't a good thing in general. This includes myself. They are lists and lists of flaws that I have and some I am better at admitting than others, but either way I have them. This doesn't mean I am worthless or no good. This means there are things I need to work on. So too start I want to tell you at least 15 of my flaws. Some I know others see as a flaw in me and are harder for me to admit and others are flaws I see in myself every day.  1. I bite my nails. 2. I worry more than I should. 3. I over think and analyze everything.  4. I am bad at staying out of things.  5. I am on my phone more than I should be.  6. I complain about being cold too much.  7. I am awful at making decisions. 8. I am too scared to step out of my comf...

Holy molies. Time really does fly. To be honest, it is crazy for me to think that I am typing this from home, in Illinois and that I am already done with my first semester of college. Seems like just yesterday I was arriving on campus and had no idea how to even get my ID card. Looking back on the semester I can see that I have already learned so much and am continuing to learn everyday. College is not easy. I will say that again and again because it is true. It is the first time I had to deal with my phobia of shots on my own. I had to rely completely on myself to get up in the mornings and make sure I got to church and class on time. If I did not attend something it was completely on me and I had to be responsible for those actions. It was the first time that I have literally spent and entire Saturday in a library. I pulled all nighters for the first time, not for fun, but for homework. I had to know my limits but not be afraid to push myself. I had to be complete responsible fo...

Considering there is two weeks left of school for me, this semester, I thought I would give an update on how everything is going. First and foremost, college is hard. There is more work than you expect and it piles up and gets crazy. You get crazy stressed and you want to give up. You realize you aren't in high school anymore and you are in the real world. You realize that you are on your own and have to make choices for yourself and if any of you know me at all, you know that is not easy for me. You come to terms that there are a lot of people you are never going to talk to again and that you are around all new people who know nothing about you. Yes, there are negatives to college, but there are also more positive things than I can count. I am going to try and list some though. The weather! Living in Hawaii definitely has its perks. Here the weather is gorgeous, most of the time. You get the days that down pour rain (and ruin your $100 textbooks) and give you an excuse to w...

A couple nights ago I was sitting with friends and one said something that kind of stuck with me. They said, "What if this was the last time we talked?" They were implying, what if after we parted ways something tragic happen and we were gone. This has been brought up multiple times in my life, just throughout random conversations, but for some reason it struck me more than usual. Maybe it's being so far from home. Or not being able to see my family everyday. It could be the fact that I am in a part of my life where there are people in my past I will never see or talk to again. Not because of death, but for other reasons as well. My mind went thinking and questions kept coming up in my mind. What was the last thing I said to my family ? What did I say to my friends right before I left home? What was the last thing I said to the last person who made me angry ? Or the person who made me sad ? We have so many people who go through our lives, but do we ever stop to thi...

One of my biggest fears coming to college was not having my family around to laugh with, to play games with, to get a simple hug from. I am someone who loves being around my family. Yes, I am aware I am not the most normal human being on the planet. Being here I have been lucky enough to find a kind family of my own. We are all different, but I think that's sort of what brings us together. There isn't a day where I don't see someone in the family at least once. Whether that be at dinner or just hanging out in the Hale lounges, I see someone. Almost every night we even have what we call "family dinner". It started out as a joke, but honestly I have come to love it. I look forward to seeing everyone and laughing and having a good time. No matter what kind of day I have had, I know that they'll be able to make me laugh. Well each of them are unique so I'll give you a little bit about each of them. I'll start with Mackenzie because I alread...

Aloha All, N ever in my life did I think that I would write a blog. I saw blogs in movies and thought they were weird. I had never heard of people writing them back home and honestly, I didn't think they were even still around anymore. Suddenly I get to college and some of the first friends I make are bloggers, who love it. I started to read their blogs and slowly started to become interested in it. Tonight, with a little encouragement from my friend Kenzie, I decided to make one. I figured it would be something fun to do, and a way for people to keep up with my life if I don't get to talk to them as often as I would like. So here I am, and I hope you enjoy. Well, I find it only appropriate that I make my first post about college. I'll make it more of a general one, but about college nonetheless. For those who didn't hear, I am attending Brigham Young University Hawaii and am majoring in Music Education. I am currently in the Concert Choir and plan on joini...